lama betul tk update entry, hahaha.. well, i'm so busy laa this lately *mengalahkan Kak Rosmah* bahaha :D anyway, i'm on my longggggg holiday, seriously too long.. three months of semester break and i have nothing to do.. duduk rumah.. last week, habis practical.. if i'm not mistaken laa.. bila cuti ni, jam pukul berapa, hari ape, tarikh ape semua aku taktau.. just terperuk dalam rumah, habiskan masa baca novel on the day sampai la ke buka.. kalau anak ibu ni rajin ikutlah ibunye ke terawih.. kalau tk, marathon drama kegemaran la~
now, its time to think about benda yang remeh-temeh.. and guess what? i hv started to think abt those crapy things.. and itu adalah salah satu perlakuan untuk mendapat headache percuma.. yeah!! -_- serious aku pening, and sangat runsing.. kekadang aku rase, cerita aku ni lagi menarik drpd jalan cerita sebuah novel, hahaha.. perasan sangat jemah! bukan ape, tlalu rumit. its so complicated, kata omputeh.. obviously laa, my heart belongs to someone~ siapa lagi kalau bukan abang sado tu. but still, two men keep on trying to win over my heart. sorry, i just cant! i cant gv any chances to them. sebaik mana pun mereka, aku tak mampu.
yes, aku takut kalau jalan yg aku pilih sekarang ni salah. i mean, boleh bahagia ke aku nanti? no one knows what will happen in the future. so, i decided to put my trust on him. yes, biasalah lumrah kehidupan ada turun naik.. so aku percaya, even if aku chose rezza as my someone in the future, there must be up and down. so, i will take the risks! i dont have any intention to start over something, something like love. do i need to stop loving person that i love, just to gv another one chance to be by my side? nope, i dont think so. and i know, rezza loves me as much as i love him. why? its between me and him.
walaupun kekadang tu macam dingin, tapi biasalah kan. and i can see his improvement, dia dah pandai kawal keadaan. that what i mean! someone who can control me over something, not the one yg aku control dia. it doesnt mean that aku tk kesah di king control, but im sure. he could be a good leader for me, and for my family soon. entahlah, it just my twenty cent la. yes aku mengaku, aku tk baik mana. and aku tk rasa aku deserve to be with them. u know what i mean~ tu je kot.. daaaaa~