tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81406501738323893132024-03-05T16:55:14.359+08:00No Ordinary GirlThe most satisfying way to add hope and harmony to your life is to enjoy it to the fullest..farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.comBlogger80125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-89505010272797849752018-09-06T21:45:00.001+08:002018-09-06T21:45:14.670+08:00Masak Rasa Air Basuh Kaki<div style="text-align: justify;">
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So harini iols masak dinner, since i am feeling well sowhy not la masak kan? lagipun dah berbulan tk masak, sebab tk larat mabuk teruk pregnant ni. now dah 5 bulan, i am getting better! semalam en husband keep on telling me nak makan asam pedas. well asam pedas ni, dah 2 3 kali jugak masak. on the very try, seriously entah apa rupa dia. cair mair! yg paling tk boleh go, en husb telan aje. at that moment i asked him how was it? pandai en husb tipu. he said, dah okay dah ni, first try. hahahahaha</div>
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so when i made it for the second time, haruslah improving kan. hahaha barulah en husb jujur, katanya first time iols masak tu failed habis. rasa air basuh tangan! kahkahkah so for today, aku memang lama gila berperang kt dapur. dengan bunyik bertukang orang rumah sebelah (tengah renovation), seriously tk boleh fokus. siap text kakak tanya kene letak kunyit ke tak. hahahaha parah weh dah lama tak masuk dapur. so iols pn buat buat la chill. masak jela mcm biasa.</div>
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but turned out semua benda tk betul. tengah menumis utk masak kangkung goreng, terhangus sikit la pulak. bila dah masuk sayur, ter overcooked la pulak. aduhai macam macam lah. masak asam pedas paling challenging, confident aje aku. tgh tumis pun terhangus sikit, kahkahkah. takpe kita adjust bagi cun, boh itu boh ini. so bila siap tanya lah en husb dia nak makan dinner lepas maghrib o isyak, so he said after isyak.</div>
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sementara dia ke masjid untuk isyak, iols pun adjust adjust la sikit resepi dengan harapan miracle happen. hahahaha goreng la dua ekor ikan selar, boh kunyit n garam bebanyak, fav tu. memang niat takmau makan asam pedas tu, sbb ptg tadi dah makan. serik. hahahahaha so hidang lah bagi cun dengan harapan appearance dapatla tambat hati en husb.</div>
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so time makan, seriously berdebor tengok muka en husb. first suapan, then he smiled. dah boleh agak senyuman tu hahaha. then i asked, how is it. he said, rasa macam asam pedas first time dulu. hahahahhaha demmm. and i guess this one bukan rasa air basuh tangan kot, ni rasa air basuh kaki. kikiki sorry la en husb, tak sengaja. tak fokus. janji esok isteri masak sesedap for breakfast and dinner ok! but husband will always be husband, dia tetapjugak telan isteri dia masak. haha sweet kan! </div>
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its okay, esok kita makan special okay. love you muahhhhh</div>
farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-78759111259854157772018-09-03T22:35:00.000+08:002018-09-03T22:35:17.850+08:00Shit HappensBismillah..<br />
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So today is quite a tough day. Maybe it is my fault for being kuat bebel, but my intention is pure. I just want to make sure that everything is hygiene and on its place. So guys, just imagine if cat litter box was placed beside dining table. Can u guys imagine?? Dengan lantai yg kemain bergedih, seriosly GELI! so when I said dont ever put that shit on that place anymore, no one understand why. and i am so done with this!<br />
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What even worst? Bila kita tegur, tapi dia libatkan benda lain. and manusia tersebut mengaitkan dengan benda yg tkde kene mngena. okay im so done with this. im off! plus, orang yg aku harapkan pn tk mampu nak tolong aku apeape. penatlah. i am damn tired! dengan kata aku macam macam. seriously aku penat. i just want to live my life in a beautiful way, tp mustahil.<br />
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so today, i was so excited preparing stuff untuk my husband as he went back from outstation. but masa tengah buat kerja, i am late for maghrib prayer. it was just 10 minutes late. then what he said really disappointing me. all I do is to make him happy. but then he really let me down. he said, i was meringan-ringankan solat. hmmm<br />
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I should be more tough next time, maybe.<br />
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It's been a long time, thing has changed, a lot. And I am married, not to the man that I dated for 5 wasted years. I am blessed to be the wife of Ahmad Nawawi Razali. So I would say, 2018 marks the 2nd year of knowing each other. And I am glad to tell that we got married last year, on the day that I was born (14th October). And the best thing happened in life, I am mummy-to-be. So my due will be January next year, InshaAllah. There is more to tell for the past two years, but I am more drive to talk about other things.</div>
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Is it me or other women do have the same feelings as I do? Right after the proposal, I have promised to myself that he will only be the one. Loving him like no other, like the way he did. Thanking him for accepting me the way I am. Even until this moment, all I do is to make him happy, and be sure that we will reach the Jannah together. I hope I changed a lot, for better. And I am happy now, for who I am, I dont expect that this could be so soon.</div>
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But, there are things that keep me pushed aside. I hate this feeling, but I cant avoid. I know, I shouldnt look back in time. The moment when he asked me to be his wife, I should know that he has sacrificed his everything to me. Yes I should remember that! But, I always want to know every single things behind his back. I mean, I want to tun back time. And day by day, I was like coming near to the truth. And I hope one day, I get the answer for everything.</div>
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Mama-to-be :) </div>
farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-49371607547475437082015-12-29T21:57:00.001+08:002015-12-29T21:57:06.949+08:006th March 2015<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Assalammualaikum..</div>
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A new day without beloved ayah :( can I live like this? aku dah anak yatim. Emosi.. tersangat tak stabil. Me either, I cannot control or expect my emotional status. ade je yang jadi mangsa.. especially him -_- and this lately, i'm just being to sensitive with people's doing. entahlah, aku pun tk faham dengan diri sendiri.. sebab masih merasa kehilangan kot.. okay laa, let's not to talk abt it..</div>
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last week weekend, pergi kuar dengan si dia. having big big gaduh.. seingat aku lah, dah lama sebenarnya tak bergaduh.. hahaha and it happened again. and, for the second time we had argument on last wednesday. i was so so excited to go out with him. unfortunately, things happened as unplanned. it's okay. may be cause of my own faults. aku punya la stress, rupanya dia boleh bsenang lenang melepak. hahaha tu namanya aku syok sendiri. bila aku text him, he replied me. and acting just so fine. okay, what's going on exactly? hahaha</div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-40486103651363068872015-12-29T21:54:00.002+08:002015-12-29T21:54:50.551+08:007th October 2015<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Busy sangat this lately. Lots of things happened in my life. I learned about pain a lot. I really do feel like I am just, a small person. A small one who people don't really care, don't care at all. They don't see me as a real in whole. What should I do to change their perception? What should I do? I am not asking to be outstanding, I am not asking for people to love me. I just want to be myself. Most of the time, I failed to prove to them that I am something. Why? Am I lived in a safe place all this while? Am I? It just, feeling so hurt to know they are labeling u as no one. I should be able to face this, this isn't the first time. I have felt a lot more back then. </div>
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I felt disappointed to know people around me ignored my thoughts. Why? Is it because I'm not performed well in studies? Is it because I am not as clever as they are? Ya Allah, please help me going through this. Please Ya Allah. I felt this for the second time. Ya Allah please help me, I just can't take it anymore. For the whole class today, I was so embarrassed as no one was taking my thoughts at the very first place. Am I not applicable enough to say out loud my thought? things that I know? Ya Allah, please give me chance to prove that I can. Please give me your guide. Please help meimprove everything. Please always be by my side. </div>
farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-16717766204037822362015-03-05T11:01:00.001+08:002015-12-29T21:50:40.786+08:00Coretan Buat Ayah.<div style="text-align: justify;">
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-41097671254669140612015-03-05T11:00:00.001+08:002015-12-29T21:50:08.098+08:00Coretan Buat Ayah..<div style="text-align: justify;">
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-69801159696863809992014-12-24T23:30:00.000+08:002015-12-29T21:52:43.664+08:00Mimpi Jadi Kenyataan?<div style="text-align: justify;">
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well ptg tadi, aku tido.. tido yg sangat lama. and it comes to a big whole of journey of mimpi.. haha over! entahlah, lately ni asyik mimpi kene kahwin je.. why? i think, i'm not ready to get married, but i'm so in love with babies and kids. sebab anak buah semua aku yang jaga, merasa jadi mummy walaupun belum masanya. last time, there's one guy fell in love with me because he saw me treating my nieces. dia cakap, i'm her type! haha nonsense..</div>
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People changed. Everything changed. Even if u claimed, that u will never change. But one fine day, u will.. hahaha mulalah tu nk mengarut.. well, I'm all alone now. Staying alone in a room, in a house, in a wing and in a block I guess.. bahaha perasan sgt letuw~ and now, tinggal sehari je nak habiskan midsem break. I was doing nothing this holiday.. okay laa, jumaat until selase I was having a camp for juniors, being a facilitator kau~ hebat tk? and what did I get from the camp? yehaaa, muka yg hitam legam! well said, aku pon tk sanggop nak pandang diri sendiri dekat cermin.. kahkahkah and there's only one thing that I can say abt the camp, HAVOC!!! tersangat best sebenarnya.. eventho at first, feeling sooooo stress~ tk cukup tidur, penat, lapar.. sesemua laa~ but at the end of the day, dapat mcm-II lessons (cehhhh)</div>
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ok, tuka topik plak.. sekarang, aku punya life dah lain.. sebab ape? sebab roommate aku dah buakn kawan aku.. yet she said, imma good friend.. she loved to be friend with me once.. ONCE~ but now, everything changed. bila? when she started to ignore me, treated me like i was nothing.. like i have no pride, lose of respect! sorry to say.. aku tersangat terkilan, terhina and sedih.. yups, salah kecik yg aku buat yet she treated me like a piece of shit. memang, pakaian tk menggambarkan hati seseorang..biarlah aku yg dipandang keji oleh golongan alim ulamak sekalipun, tapi ibu ayah tk ajar aku tk hormat perasaan org lain~ jangankan hubungan dengan Allah je elok, tp dengan manusia? sorry to say, i won't forget what she did. terhina! its okay my dear, i'll show u what i have.. u asked for it.. we'll see how we will survive this three more years..</div>
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again, orang yg sama. buat aku rasaa down.. again, pasal MPIV.. aku tahu, aku memang TAK LAYAK nak ikut korang buat program agama, buat program ilmu, sebab apa? sebab aku tk mcm korang.. kan? dari first year aku dilayan macam smpah.. depan-II kau buat aku macam sampah! teruk sangat ke aku? yes, people won't understand for what the shit i'm talking about.. its about HER who treated perempuan yg tak pandai ilmu agama mcm aku, as piece of crap! kekadang aku terfikir, kenapa ada manusia yg macam ni? sebab apa? mungkin sebab da sure masuk syurga or something? sokey, aku tk salahkan kau~ mungkin salah aku sebab tk reti ilmu agama macam KAU! </div>
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Hehe, see what this girl is trying to do? She changed her mind from doing her practical report, and now~ updating new entry.. nice one Farah.. hahaha its okay la i guess.. cuti still got one more month, so aku rasa sempat sgt nak siapkan dua report yg tak seberapa panjang tu.. hahahah time macam ni, siapa je yang ade mood nak buat report? hahah its time to melaghakan diri.. bahaha :P bukan apa, sebenarnya aku terasa satu beban.. beban atas bahu, atas kepala.. semua la~ terasa sangat-II berat and i just cant take it anymore.. maybe its time to make things clear! clear to each one who decided to interfere with my life..</div>
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yes, who knows.. dulu, i was nothing.. no one could see me as the way i am.. no one because im just the ordinary girl.. takde apa yg dapat dibanggakan.. but now it may look different.. and its not the main point here.. its all about my life, my heart.. i hv said million times, i will only love him.. and i just cant stop loving him.. no matter what happen, yes i cant see other people.. im blinded by his love.. </div>
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Assalammualaikum wbt.. harini,
aku nak buats atu confession. Well it isn’t really a confession, its more
likely as luahan hati.. yes.. pasal JPA.. obviously.. and honestly, aku kecewa
bila tk dapat biasiswa JPA.. yang org kejar-II kan yang org agung-IIkan..
jangan tipu diri sendiri, semua org nak dapat biasiswa.. kau kaya tinggi langit
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Ye memang aku jeles. Salah ke
kalau aku nak jeles? Sebab apa aku jeles? Banyak sebabnya.. tak siapa yg akan
tahu.. and currently im having PTPTN.. thanks god, ade PTPTN.. walaupun ramai
yg cakap PTPTN ni tipu, makan duit org, lintah darat and blab la bla.. I don’t care
at all.. why? Because PTPTN lah yg bantu aku sambung belajar sampai peringkat
ni.. you want a free education fee? Go to
hell.. sudah terang lagi bersuluh, ni Negara membangun.. tak perlu compare with
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pemegang kad OKU.. kudung sebelah kaki.. kau rase dia mampu nak sara keluarga
aku yg besar? Yes my two sisters dah bekerja.. tapi tanyalah dorang keje ape? Bukan
engineer, bukan doctor, bukan lawyer.. aku faham situasi mereka.. dah
bekeluarga.. takkan masih nak tanggung aku sekeluarga? Anak perempuan, dah
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Ibu, sekarang dah bekerja. Tanyalay
kerja apa? Pembantu kemas.. tanyalah pulak gaji berapa.. 600RM sebulan. Kau rasa
dapat buat apa je? Kesian ibu, selama ni terpaksa tahan perasaan nak memiliki
apa-II.. anak membesar, ramai.. 6 orang semuanya.. memang takde kesempatan nak
fikir diri sendiri.. its all about anak and anak.. bila semua dah besar, dugaan
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Balik pada sebab apa aku jeles? Sebab
aku budak pinjaman. Makan kene sekat, kalau tak aku tkkan survive sampai hujung
sem.. nak keluar kene tahan.. that’s good. But compare to those JPA’s holder..
duit bukan buat belajar sangat pon.. pergi berjalan, melancong, makan, lepak,
membazir.. sorry to say.. I saw that myself.. aku perlu jeles. Nak buat
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aku mohon JPA. CGPA aku bukan tk lepas. Mungkin ada yg lebih cemerlang. I take
it as a reason. But. Yang dah dapat tu, sorry to say. Kau maintain tk pointer
kau? Patotnya kau perform better than I do. But? Ask yourself. Aku takdelah
hebat mana, tahap ayam-II je. Sesuai la sebab aku budak pinjaman. Kau? Setiap sem
dapat 6 7 ribu, kau buat ape? Beli handphone baru tiap kali model baru keluar? Tapi
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Lagi. JPA dah bagi syarat. Kalau kau
dah ada tajaan, kau tak layak. TIPU! Its one of the bullshit thing I have ever
heard. Why? Sebab mereka selalu menipu! Tak percaya? Orang yang aku kenal,
sangat rapat! Dia dah ade biasiswa, tapi tk cukup. Tk bsersyukur mungkin. Apply
JPA, dan dapat! Mungkin rezeki dia. Tapi, kenapa? Tak cukup dengan rezeki terdahulu? Sebab apa aku kesah? Sebab aku
jeles. Semua dah aku buat. Rayuan. Lecturer pon bagi surat sokongan. Bil-II
perubatan ayah. Dan segalanya. Kenapa? Sebab aku tak boleh jadi bagus? <o:p></o:p></div>
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contohnya. Sakit rasanya, tiap kali dikecewakan. Tak sanggup. Sehinggakan pointer
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-23777552873534120582014-07-08T00:39:00.000+08:002014-07-08T00:39:09.881+08:00Jari Terasa Ringan Nak Menaip! :)<div style="text-align: justify;">
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lama betul tk update entry, hahaha.. well, i'm so busy laa this lately *mengalahkan Kak Rosmah* bahaha :D anyway, i'm on my longggggg holiday, seriously too long.. three months of semester break and i have nothing to do.. duduk rumah.. last week, habis practical.. if i'm not mistaken laa.. bila cuti ni, jam pukul berapa, hari ape, tarikh ape semua aku taktau.. just terperuk dalam rumah, habiskan masa baca novel on the day sampai la ke buka.. kalau anak ibu ni rajin ikutlah ibunye ke terawih.. kalau tk, marathon drama kegemaran la~ </div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-9709009825490405952014-05-22T00:50:00.000+08:002014-05-22T00:50:27.380+08:00Teman?<div style="text-align: justify;">
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well, hari ni.. things get better as I acted like nothing was happened. doesnt mean that aku tak ingat dengan kesalahan sendiri. no, i still remember that.. it just the feeling of being leftover. and to be honest with myself, deep down my heart i feel so hurt.. because of my roomate.. yes.. she is.. no matter how hard i tried, i cant hide my sadness.. yes, i hv made a mistake once.. but, siapa kita nak hukum org? siapa!! seriously aku sesangat terkilan.. yang amat.. she treated me so bad.. its been three days we didnt talked to each other.. i hv tried to, but she refused. no, i dont hv the idea y.. because of my mistake? then, are you God to punish me? why you cant be like others? like Maryam? perempuan baik as kawan yg paling baik pernah aku jumpa.. yes, i'm so.. terluka.. its just one thing.. aku taknak mendoakan apa-II, just hope to see you happy.. happy for treating others like they have no feeling.. thanks rummie.. it is most appreciated :')</div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-35454003155058822532014-05-19T22:05:00.000+08:002014-05-19T22:05:07.724+08:00Cerita Semalam..<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Tak pernah rasa seteruk ni.. Ujian.. Masalah berpunca daripada diri sendiri.. aku mengaku.. but people cant accept that, how do I make them terima? impossible kan? then, I deserved it.. its okay.. it is just, my dear sendiri tinggalkan aku sebab kan ni.. im so frustated.. i knew its gonna be happened. its so.. im crying a lot these two days.. sangat.. sakit.. but, no one knows.. they thought that i'm happy for what i hv done.. nak mintak tolong Allah, tapi malu.. perempuan hina ni baru nak ingat Tuhan? and masalah datang bertimpa-II.. i just cant avoid that.. so, no matter how hard it is i have to face it.. </div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-59772820737917031662014-05-12T02:42:00.000+08:002014-05-12T02:42:07.125+08:00Kemengarutan di Malam Hari..<div style="text-align: justify;">
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its not about test alone, its about last friday, last saturday, upcoming thursday and upcoming sunday.. wow, so many plans huh? nope.. jumaat lepas, birthday abang saiful and the next day birthday ayah.. this coming thursday, birthday buah hati :D and...... guess what, tak dapat nak celebrate cause I have a paper that day.. bravo! *how did I stuck in this world?* plus, start from tomorrow I will have no much time to spend with him. every night till sunday, got dance practice. yes, ahad dah competition.. please pray for our victory :) excited and takut..</div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-90906310130748339412014-04-22T11:51:00.001+08:002018-09-02T15:32:48.905+08:00My life :3<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: justify;">
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minggu yg hectic. #eh.. hahhaa minggu test 2.. satu paper dah jawab.. it was Pathology. Guess what??? tak study pon. Arghh good job farah :3 result test satu teruk kot! sampai bila nk mainmain.. ermm actually bukan main. Yes bukan mainmain.. cuma diri sendiri ni, tk tenang. Stress.. sebab ape? sebab lelaki.. sounds stupid huh? aku mengaku. Buatpa nk stress pasai mereka.. mcm bengong jaa.. oklaa.. lets begin now.. </div>
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Last month, i met someone. I didnt know him and he didnt know me either. And suddenly, he confessed that he fell in love with me for the first time. Seriously i cant believe it. Ni bukan zaman purba lagi, ke camne? Beriye nak ajak aku kawen.. he's 28 and im just 21. i was thinking, im still young to get married. Yes, too young! tak matang lagi. Hahaha he was like.. forcing me.. yes i feel like i hv been forced to marry him. No way man! let me decide what d best for my own future. Eventho aku sendiri tktau apa yg betul ape yg tak *ayat mcm budak belom mumayyiz* aku paham, dia punya umur.. hahaha must quick to get married. But, if he want to do so please pick up someone else. Not me, totally it shouldnt be me!</div>
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At the beginning, aku rase mcm wow! ade org ajak aku kawen. Im so excited! excited je, not more than that. Theres difference between excitation and acceptance. Get me guys? so please dont get misunderstand with my statement. Plus, and now. Everything changed! i dont hv intention to say this. But.. i should say it out loud!! its so.. aku tk suka.. the way he treat me. Aku tk suka.. wehh, we hv nothing laa. Just dont be too good to me. Plus, if now he cant understand my student life, how would he understand me after marriage?? tkkan nak msg 24 hrs. Please laa, aku ade kelas, ade assignment, ade aktivity ade itu ade ini! seriously, i cant take it anymore.. aku rase aku da beritahu yg aku tknak kawen time belajar. Yes im so sure, i hv told him already.. seriously aku rase aku dipaksa.. blerghhh :3 </div>
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Tu satu masalah, and another one. Ade budak fakulti aku pon propose aku. Gilaa! semua serius.. but guys for your info. Im not ready to have any commitment as a wife.. yes i dont want to get married laa! muda lagi, masih nk enjoy. Masih jauh pjalanan nak kejar cita2.. </div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-4369031404487877952014-04-15T17:04:00.000+08:002014-04-15T17:04:27.108+08:00May Allah Ease Everything :)Bismillah..<br />
Assalammualaikum..<br />
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I have never asked to be in this situation,<br />
I have never asked to be in the middle of two,<br />
I hope I can find the way out,<br />
I hope I can just fly out of their minds,<br />
Doubting of the sincerity,<br />
Dissatisfying of the courtesy,<br />
How would I be the right person,<br />
If in the past I were not belong to them..<br />
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In just three days,<br />
I will probably make a big mistake,<br />
Mistake of deciding for the future,<br />
Taking me away from the right path,<br />
Subhanallah, MashaAllah..<br />
Or else,<br />
I am heading to His Jannah,<br />
Love that belong to Him,<br />
Chance to feel the true love,<br />
Being loved for dunia wal akhirah,<br />
Alhamdulillah, Wasyukurillah..<br />
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May Allah ease everything!<br />
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Sincerely,<br />
Farah<br />
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<br />farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-58868936950152036002014-04-10T00:36:00.001+08:002014-04-10T00:36:26.655+08:00Secebis Rasa :)Bismillah..<br />
Assalammualaikum..<br />
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coretan hati menjadi santapan,<br />
bukan meminta-meminta,<br />
bukan menunjuk-nunjuk,<br />
hanya mengharapkan satu keajaiban,<br />
keajaiban dari si Pencipta yang maha Esa..<br />
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jalan yang lurus,<br />
jalan yang membawa ku jauh daripada landasan,<br />
jalan yang diredhaiNya,<br />
mahupun jalan kemurkaan,<br />
manakah pilihan hati,<br />
biar sekali terpilih,<br />
tiada berpatah balik..<br />
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mungkin dorongan dan sokongan diperlukan,<br />
bantuan si perasa asam garam terdahulu ditagih,<br />
biar sekali merana,<br />
jangan pilihan memberi seribu satu kesengsaraa,<br />
Ya Tuhan,<br />
bantulah hambaMu yang kerdil ini..<br />
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Nurkilan hati,<br />
Farah..farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-22686407191447263592014-02-17T20:09:00.000+08:002018-09-02T15:44:36.120+08:00Sorry, tapi aku dah putus asa :'(<div style="text-align: justify;">
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first day of new semester.. everything changed! and my life is totally changed.. i really cant take it anymore.. i'm quit! why? why it should be me? ya Allah, besar sangat dugaan yg kau bagi.. KEKECEWAAN.. aku dah terlalu banyak kecewa! terlalu banyak! hati aku ni dah mati.. my heart has already died long time ago.. i dont know what it feels.. for hundreds of time, aku kecewa! kekecewaan terbesar bila ramai kawan dapat 2nd intake for JPA's scholarship.. and aku? aku je yg tk dapat! aku bersusah payah buat rayuan segala bagai.. and yet, still i'm not chosen! kenapa? aku dah lepas cgpa yg dorang nak! apa lagi yg tak cukop? keluarga aku dah cukop susah!!! apa lagi yg dorang nak! semuanya buat aku distress! serius, dengan upcoming event lagi.. semua nak pakai duit.. AKU TAKDA DUIT! nak makan pon aku takde duit! it seems like doesnt make a sense, tapi thats my life is actually.. korang semua anak org senang, budak tajaan semua bolehlaa hidup mewah.. takpayah risau nak bayar itu ini.. aku? hutang sana sini.. seriously, i just cant take it anymore!!!</div>
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aku ade beritahu, aku tak mampu nak bayar for vet dinner.. and those person in charge~ looking at me like *shut up you bitch, pay for the money and just attend it to support the rest of the classmates!* ermmmm.. aku tkde duit paham tk! duit yg sedia ada ni banyak yg nk kene guna.. aku berhutang sana sini.. hutang tu WAJIB dibayar! ermmmm yups.. dorang tkpaham.. sebab dorang tk rasa susah yg aku rasa.. kan! you guys have a great life.. keep it up! congratulations! but you guys must always remember, not all people got the same life as you do.. salah satunya aku.. hahahahah kenapa aku rasa macam ni?? yes, last time when i did practical, aku terpaksa cagarkan handset aku sebab aku tkde duit nak buat pratical.. susah sangat hidup aku masa tu.. aku tknak mintak ibu ayah sekaligus banyak-II.. aku bukan orang senang macam org lain! and again, organizing event that is compulsory to be attended? mana aku nak carik duit!!!</div>
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aku selalu rasa kecik, tersangat kecik! dengan sesape je.. rendah diri sangat.. hina sangat.. aku bersyukur dilahirkan macamni.. keadaan keluarga aku yg bukanlah orang senang.. tapi? please guys, don't treat me like i am one of yours.. please :'( </div>
farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-52590674121642438472014-01-06T00:53:00.001+08:002018-09-02T15:52:23.113+08:00Esok Last Payyypeeerrr.. Hoooyeahhh!<div style="text-align: justify;">
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well done to myself! i'm totally recover laa.. insyaAllah.. and guess what?!?!?!?!</div>
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right after habis exam, aku nak kemas semua barang.. packing up all my stuffs and ready to go back home!! basuh baju semua and... thinking of hanging out with friends.. but now i realized, i dont have one.. mungkin sebab masalah aku sendirik.. its ok.. this new year, i'll try to change myself especially my attitude.. make people selesa dengan aku especially.. and yet if there is still no one yang nak kawan ngan aku, takpe.. i can just live my own life! heheheh still i'm happy to be myself.. cause no one knows my strengths and all they see is my weaknesses!</div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Hi u olss.. I olss makin rajin plak nak
post entry.. yela, semenjak dua menjak ni, makin syahdu pulak hidup..
kahkahkah.. okok, tadi tepat jam 2.30 aku ade paper final foe ethology and
animal welfare.. sehari gap untuk study just before the day.. but what I did is
that study for nothing.. yes, for nothing u olss.. entah kenapa laa aku ni
macam down sesangat.. and when I got back to college, pon tak study.. pasai pa?
pasai bergaduh dengan buah hati (yang dah jadi ex skang LOL sangat)</span>.. what the hell is happening with me?? I’ve
never get affected or influenced by all those things selama ni!!! Arghh tension..
aku dah tak pandai jaga diri.. ye, DAH TAK PANDAI JAGA DIRI.. benda macam ni
boleh buat aku distracted?? Woii, it’s a final examination beb!! It’s the thing
that will lead to the brightness of your future.. don’t u realized that?</div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Oklaa, dan right after aku jawab exam
tadi.. I am so frustrated sebab tak mampu buat sehabis mungkin. Why? Tak cukop
masa.. and that is not the main point.. tapi not enough time spent for some
kind of preparation.. ermmm ok padan muka FARAHHH!!! Serve your right.. siapa
suruh ikutkan perasaan? You should study that night, and you were wasting your
time and tears for the one who didn’t deserve that! Open your eyes FARAHH..
ermmm.. subhanallah.. what’s wrong with me??? What’s wrong? Dulu masa Asasi,
aku patah hati jugak.. but Alhamdulillah, I managed not to be influenced by
those things.. and now, it’s totally different.. siapa suruh bercinta bagai nak
rak time belajar?? Kan dapat bahagiannya!!!! Arghhh, #MohonClash!!!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Untuk junior-II semua, ni akak ade pesanan
penaja.. time belajar ni toksah laa bercinta.. bebankan kepala otak je dengan
masalah.. time memula semuanya manis.. kentut pon wangi.. bila dah ade masalah,
hah rasakanlah.. kalau memula tu, semua share sesame.. susah senang, masalah
bagai.. but when u reach certain level in your relationship, u will feel regret
of being trapped in that love itself! Definitely as what I feel currently.. and
he doesn’t even care about me.. I feel like the stupidest girl ever existed in
the world.. I said to him.. I would sacrifice everything for him.. EVERYTHING!!
Including my future.. shittt! It so damn stupid.. Alhamdulillah, tersedar
dengan cepat apa yg aku cakap.. it is just so memalukan.. sacrifice my own
bright future disebabkan benda yg just like a piece of crap? Seriously, I’m out
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<span lang="EN-US">Dia, cinta dan segalanya takda dalam hidup
aku lagi masa aku bina cita-II aku.. takda lagi.. belum wujud! Aku nak
sacrifice everything? What the hell ==’’ and I’m moving one step ahead of
ruining my own future.. well, it’s a good job btw.. nampaknya memang aku berjaya
musnahkan masa depan sendiri.. hati ni!! Kenapa Tuhan bagi aku perasaan? Kenapa
Tuhan bagi aku rasa untuk sayang orang? Kenapa? Aku menyesal.. serius..
patutnya aku takpayah layan perasaan ni lelebih.. bila aku teringat ibu ayah,
ya Allah.. terlalu banyak dosa yang aku buat.. seriously I really want to say
sorry for ruining my own future.. I’m begging them! Aku mintak maaf sangat..
mesti diorang kecewa dengan aku.. mesti!!! Tadi pun aku cakap kt ibu, aku tk
boleh jawab paper tadi.. but she still put her believing that I could.. I have
the ability :’( mashaAllah.. begitu besar harapan ibu ayah aku kat aku..</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Dan sekarang, I managed not to get
distracted again.. hati, jadilah beku sebeku-bekunya!! Aku dah tak perlukan
semua.. ya, aku memang takut sebelum ni untuk tinggalkan dia.. sebab dia tempat
aku bergantung.. sampaikan makan aku pun dia yang tanggung.. takpe, lepas ni aku
akan cuba untuk survive sendiri.. yes, I will!! Dulu aku tkdak pon depending on
lelaki.. takdak.. sekarang je mengada-II.. manja tak tentu pasal.. woi, kau ade
mak bapak laa!! Takpayah nak menagih kasih ke, simpati ke kt orang..d ah,
takpayah nak cintan-cintun.. membazir masa.. musnahkan masa depan je!! Tak payah
berangan nak kawen ke ape! Belajar pepandai.. pastu boleh fly poie luar negara..
tu yg kau idamkan kan? Kejar cita-II tu.. jangan pandang belakang or kiri
kanan.. bagi kesenangan and kebahagiaan kat ibu ayah.. banyak dah yg dorang
berkorban.. ingat sikit *ni semua pesanan untuk I olss ok!* </span></div>
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sangat dekat IBU AYAH KAKAK ABANG ADIK.. dan semua laa!!! Hahahah *gile
sekejap* dah seharian, aku da bangkit dah.. hahahah insyaAllah.. let’s open new
book.. it’s ok, even if the first and the second page of 2014 is damn suck! Tapi
ade baki 363 pages kan?? Heheh.. let’s choose the best color, beautify each
pages and live your life macam takdak sape wujud.. karna dunia ini aku yang
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 115%;">Happy new year for all! Azam baru?? Entahlah, I’m
having such a tight moment right now.. by the way, its not a good starting at
all.. AKU PUTUS CINTA?? Nak categorized as putus cinta tu taktahu laa.. yang
penting aku patah hati, kecewa dan yang sewaktu dengannya.. aku ingatkan ni laa
kisah cinta terakhir aku.. tapi hampeh.. da putus di tengah jalan.. HAHAHAH..
*dalam hati siapa yang tahu* kecewa sangat!! Aku rasa macam sia-II past few years..
aku sayangkan orang yang tak hargai aku langsung.. aku taktahu laa apa niat dia
selama ni layan aku baik, jaga aku dengan penuh kasih sayang, sanggup bersusah
payah untuk aku, sanggup ikat perut untuk tengok aku kenyang.. seriously, aku
takpaham!! Apa niat dia sebenarnya? Bila dah jadik macam ni, setan pon suka laa
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 115%;">Entahlah! Selama ni dia yang aku percaya dia yang aku
sayang.. tapi takpe, aku memang dah agak benda macam ni akan jadik.. aku memang
dah lama agak.. Cuma SAMPAI HATI buat aku macam ni.. dia tahu aku tk boleh bila
ada masalah camni, tapi dia tak kisah pun.. mungkin nak BALAS DENDAM sebab aku
pernah tinggalkan dia dulu? Nak bagi aku rasa yang sama? Lagi-II tengah minggu
FINAL EXAM.. kan? Kalau betul lah, kejamnya :’( aku harap taklah.. ye, lately
ni dia dah banyak berubah.. bagus.. untuk kebaikan kami berdua.. tapi sampai
abaikan aku.. dia mengaku.. Cuma aku nak tahu, apa sebab dia berubah?? Katanya ada
masalah besar.. besar mana tu sampai sanggup berpisah dengan aku daripada
beritahu aku perkara sebenar???<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 115%;">Aku taktahu apa maksud dia! Aku mati ke kalau beritahu
aku d truth things? I should have know your problems from the beginning!! Selama
ni aku jadikan dia tempat untuk aku mengadu.. tapi dia? Anggap aku takde pon
takpe.. kan? He needs some space~ ok.. space to make me feel so hurt like
this?? Thank u so much dear.. but once the problem is no longer with u, just
bear in mind.. u’re losing me already.. that’s it!!! I’ve told u already.. aku
dah terlalu sakit dipergunakan.. dan aku rasa aku perempuan paling bodoh dalam
dunia.. and lepas ni, aku takkan percaya mana-II lelaki.. sebab most of them ni
PENIPU!! I didn’t say all of them, but MOST of them! Bukan sebab lelaki tu
jahat, Cuma sebab aku yang BODOH percayakan lelaki.. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 115%;">Aku yakin, kali ni aku bukan main-II.. aku betul-II
dah patah hati.. tertutup dah pintu hati ni untuk kemaafan.. dahlah, jangan
fikirkan sangat! Tuhan dah aturkan yg lebih baik.. insyaAllah.. sekarang, focus
for the last several papers!! Gambate!! :’)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Assalammualaikumm..</div>
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hiii farah -_-</div>
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ermm apakah yang telah kau lakukan farah?? 3 papers touched down.. 3 more to go.. tu laa, mainmain lagi.. cuti lama kan?? seminggu! apasai tk study.. sebelum ni bserah sangatlaa kan kalau pointer teruk.. dah bajet eh? hoi, kalau failed nak repeat ke? NO WAYYYY.. taknak.. Genetics buat sakit kepala.. carrymarks teruk! at least kene lulus kalau tk nak repeat.. ermmmm.. ya Allah.. aku dah buat sehabis baik dah.. tapi yela, aku mana sempat study semua! aku balik kampung dan.. mindset aku tetiba macam ape je.. *kalau study pon takboleh jawab, sama je tak study* subhanallah.. aku berputus asa di tengah jalan.. Farah farah -_-</div>
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sekarang? tiga paper dah kau jawab.. puas aty tak? ermmm okok.. frankly soeak, aku memang tk habis study and tk study langsung.. malam nak final tu baru study.. gile tk rasa? nak memain lagi ke lepas ni? pointer jatuh teruk jangan salahkan org lain.. salahkan diri sendiri yg mainmain tk serius! ya Allah.. terima kasih atas bantuan yang telah kau beri.. aku tahu, aku tak habis study tp Allah bantu aku.. kalau tk aku tak mampu nak jawab langsung.. tp alhamdulillah.. Allah permudahkan insyaAllah.. terima kasih Ya Allah..</div>
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its okay.. just dont bother for what people say and for what people do.. aku? aku memang tak boleh tgk org sekeliling stress belajar.. and aku akan stress samaa.. bila dah stress tu yg susah! actually aku masih mencari study method yg sesuai untuk aku.. macam time sekolah ka, time asasi ka, time bebila ka.. hahahah okok serius! right after keluaq result, aku akan decide apa yang terbaik.. hee :D</div>
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farahKHALID'Sdaughterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03905832444130915695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8140650173832389313.post-7673221508731457652013-12-24T16:17:00.001+08:002013-12-24T16:17:46.368+08:00Be Matured Farah!<div style="text-align: justify;">
bismillahirrahmanirrahim..</div>
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Assalammualaikum..</div>
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no mood today.. my study mood is totally changed bila bergaduh dengan dik beradik sendiri.. kat mana? kat PUBLIC.. well, sapa tak malu kan.. as manusia biasa lah, siapa yang akan berdiam diri bila dihina, dicaci, dimaki.. dengan siapa? dengan kakak sendiri.. ermmm aku taktahulaa.. aku dah cuba nak mintak maaf, walaupun the fault is not mine for 100%.. i was just giving my own opinion and she just cant accepted it.. mungkin cara penyampaian aku salah.. yes, i admit that.. tapi entahlah.. tak cukup ke dugaan aku ya Allah.. sekarang yang ni pulak.. tak habis-II.. aku takut.. aku takut dengan semua ni.. aku rasa macam, aku nak mati.. aku rasa macam lebih baik aku mati.. sekarang..</div>
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wahai kakak-II yang nasihatkan aku, mungkin korang taktahu.. taktahu apa yg berlaku.. bila aku cuba terangkan, balik-II aku yang salah.. kenapa? sebab nampak aku yang BIADAP? sebab nampak aku yang KURANG AJAR? aku sorang yang tak kenang budi.. mashaAllah.. jauh sekali dalam hati aku ni nak lupa diri.. kalau pun aku dah berada di menara gading, aku sedar.. tanpa keluarga aku sendiri aku takkan berada kat sini.. tapi kalau nak berbalah, perlu ke sentuh pasal pandai ke bodoh ke.. duit, makan, pakai.. semua? aku sedar, sekarang aku memang tak mampu nak berjasa pada keluarga sendiri.. aku tahu.. belum tiba masanya! </div>
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salah ke aku cuba nak bersuara? salah ke aku? cara tak betul? at least aku tak buat di public.. ouhhh mungkin aku baru setahun jagung.. subhanallah.. ya Allah, ampunkan dosa hambamu ini.. :'( aku sayangkan keluarga aku.. tapi.. entahla.. buntu.. sekarang aku ada lagi banyak masalah yang kene fikir.. bukan ni je.. dengan final, masalah itu masalah ini.. practical.. duit.. ya Allah :( kuatkan hati hambamu ini.. ye, mungkin ada yang suka dedahkan pada semua org.. apa masalah yang kau ade.. tapi aku, biarlah orang nampak aku gembira, tersenyum.. tapi aku je yang tahu apa masalah yang aku hadapi..</div>
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