Teman?

Bismillahirrahmanirrhanim..

assalammualaikum..

well, hari ni.. things get better as I acted like nothing was happened. doesnt mean that aku tak ingat dengan kesalahan sendiri. no, i still remember that.. it just the feeling of being leftover. and to be honest with myself, deep down my heart i feel so hurt.. because of my roomate.. yes.. she is.. no matter how hard i tried, i cant hide my sadness.. yes, i hv made a mistake once.. but, siapa kita nak hukum org? siapa!! seriously aku sesangat terkilan.. yang amat.. she treated me so bad.. its been three days we didnt talked to each other.. i hv tried to, but she refused. no, i dont hv the idea y.. because of my mistake? then, are you God to punish me? why you cant be like others? like Maryam? perempuan baik as kawan yg paling baik pernah aku jumpa.. yes, i'm so.. terluka.. its just one thing.. aku taknak mendoakan apa-II, just hope to see you happy.. happy for treating others like they have no feeling.. thanks rummie.. it is most appreciated :')

sincerely,

Farah

Cerita Semalam..

Bismillah..

Assalammualaikum..

Tak pernah rasa seteruk ni.. Ujian.. Masalah berpunca daripada diri sendiri.. aku mengaku.. but people cant accept that, how do I make them terima? impossible kan? then, I deserved it.. its okay.. it is just, my dear sendiri tinggalkan aku sebab kan ni.. im so frustated.. i knew its gonna be happened. its so.. im crying a lot these two days.. sangat.. sakit.. but, no one knows.. they thought that i'm happy for what i hv done.. nak mintak tolong Allah, tapi malu.. perempuan hina ni baru nak ingat Tuhan? and masalah datang bertimpa-II.. i just cant avoid that.. so, no matter how hard it is i have to face it.. 

terasa diri ni taklayak.. nak bergaul, nak berkawan.. and i hv made my decision.. aku tkkan letakkan diri aku macam dulu.. sekarang dah lain.. aku dah taklayak nak bkawan dengan org-II mulia ni.. jauh sangat aku tertinggal.. ye, taklayak!! aku sedar.. and aku akan survive sendiri mulai skang.. i need to.. i need to think for my own future. now, the real life starts! i'm the one who chose the wrong way, and its really killing me.. what to do.. just face it!! kalau dulu, aku ade masalah pon aku tk kesah.. cuz i hv someone behind me.. the one who really gives all his support to me, the one who always makes me strong when i'm down..

actually, apa yg aku rasa sekarang.. dengan kesalahan aku tu.. why, some people act like~ ermmm.. why? tak boleh terima langsung aku buat camtu? terus pulaukan aku? ape ni? siapa diorang ni nak judge aku? terus letakkan aku serendh-rendah manusia? ok then, I take it as a challenge.. there is one pak ustaz bash aku n kawan aku habis-II kat fb.. betul ke cara awak nak tegur tu? betul? dengan malukan kami? thanks a lot, i hope Allah can gv u rewards for your good intention.. but, is that the right way? come on.. jahil-II aku pon takde laa sampai macam tu.. dan the rest. why? sebab hang bertudung litup? aku terbukak sekejap, hang terus pandang aku macam perempuan zaman jahiliah.. camtu?

for your information, aku ade kawan sejak sekolah.. yes, she's wearing hijab whenever she wants. but we hv never treated her like the way you all do.. seriously.. with her outfits, i guesses if she is one of us now~ i could bet that you'll dump her like a bitch!!!!

Kemengarutan di Malam Hari..

Assalammualaikum wbt..

hi yolsssss..

again, studying till late night! shut up, I deserved to be like this. study in the very last minute, padahal ade banyak masa for revision. and I chose this way, padan muka kalau tk dapat jawab. huh :3 and the last post, about pathology test. and abviously, I studied for the same subject tonight but for the third test.. yes, THIRD TEST guys.. well, UPM stands for Universiti Peperiksaan Malaysia.. sangat banyak exam.. if it possible I guess, they will do the test for each consecutive weeks.. and its happening to my course, we got papers each weeks. congrats congrats!

its not about test alone, its about last friday, last saturday, upcoming thursday and upcoming sunday.. wow, so many plans huh? nope.. jumaat lepas, birthday abang saiful and the next day birthday ayah.. this coming thursday, birthday buah hati :D and...... guess what, tak dapat nak celebrate cause I have a paper that day.. bravo! *how did I stuck in this world?* plus, start from tomorrow I will have no much time to spend with him. every night till sunday, got dance practice. yes, ahad dah competition.. please pray for our victory :) excited and takut..

and now, i have so many plans to prepare the birthday present. but, got no money, time and everything.. how!!!!! why!!! can we just postpone his birthday to any other day please?? at least right after the competition and test thingy!! arghhhh I'm stressed -_- actually.. its ok.. nevermind. and now, I'm gonna talk about someone.. its not about my feeling itself, its just how hurt I am. why do people treat others differently? depending on their attire or what? kalau aku ni tak labuh tudung, nape pandang aku jijik sangat? yes, jijik.. why??? hampa baik sangat ye? I know, aku memang tak baik, but at least.. tak boleh ke layan semua orang sama rata? just curious.. no offense..

goodnight world, nak tido.. ngantuk sangat dah.. assalam

My life :3

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.. 

Assalammualaikum wbt..

minggu yg hectic. #eh.. hahhaa minggu test 2.. satu paper dah jawab.. it was Pathology. Guess what??? tak study pon. Arghh good job farah :3 result test satu teruk kot! sampai bila nk mainmain.. ermm actually bukan main.  Yes bukan mainmain.. cuma diri sendiri ni, tk tenang. Stress.. sebab ape? sebab lelaki.. sounds stupid huh? aku mengaku. Buatpa nk stress pasai mereka.. mcm bengong jaa.. oklaa.. lets begin now..

Last month, i met someone. I didnt know him and he didnt know me either. And suddenly, he confessed that he fell in love with me for the first time. Seriously i cant believe it. Ni bukan zaman purba lagi, ke camne? Beriye nak ajak aku kawen.. he's 28 and im just 21. i was thinking, im still young to get married. Yes, too young! tak matang lagi. Hahaha he was like.. forcing me.. yes i feel like i hv been forced to marry him. No way man! let me decide what d best for my own future. Eventho aku sendiri tktau apa yg betul ape yg tak *ayat mcm budak belom mumayyiz* aku paham, dia punya umur.. hahaha must quick to get married. But, if he want to do so please pick up someone else. Not me, totally it shouldnt be me!

At the beginning, aku rase mcm wow! ade org ajak aku kawen. Im so excited! excited je, not more than that. Theres difference between excitation and acceptance. Get me guys? so please dont get misunderstand with my statement. Plus, and now. Everything changed! i dont hv intention to say this. But.. i should say it out loud!! its so.. aku tk suka.. the way he treat me. Aku tk suka.. wehh, we hv nothing laa. Just dont be too good to me. Plus, if now he cant understand my student life, how would he understand me after marriage?? tkkan nak msg 24 hrs. Please laa, aku ade kelas, ade assignment, ade aktivity ade itu ade ini! seriously, i cant take it anymore.. aku rase aku da beritahu yg aku tknak kawen time belajar. Yes im so sure, i hv told him already.. seriously aku rase aku dipaksa.. blerghhh :3

Tu satu masalah, and another one. Ade budak fakulti aku pon propose aku. Gilaa! semua serius.. but guys for your info. Im not ready to have any commitment as a wife.. yes i dont want to get married laa! muda lagi, masih nk enjoy. Masih jauh pjalanan nak kejar cita2.. 

the end. Hahaa

May Allah Ease Everything :)

Bismillah..
Assalammualaikum..

I have never asked to be in this situation,
I have never asked to be in the middle of two,
I hope I can find the way out,
I hope I can just fly out of their minds,
Doubting of the sincerity,
Dissatisfying of the courtesy,
How would I be the right person,
If in the past I were not belong to them..

In just three days,
I will probably make a big mistake,
Mistake of deciding for the future,
Taking me away from the right path,
Subhanallah, MashaAllah..
Or else,
I am heading to His Jannah,
Love that belong to Him,
Chance to feel the true love,
Being loved for dunia wal akhirah,
Alhamdulillah, Wasyukurillah..

May Allah ease everything!

Sincerely,
Farah

Secebis Rasa :)

Bismillah..
Assalammualaikum..

coretan hati menjadi santapan,
bukan meminta-meminta,
bukan menunjuk-nunjuk,
hanya mengharapkan satu keajaiban,
keajaiban dari si Pencipta yang maha Esa..

jalan yang lurus,
jalan yang membawa ku jauh daripada landasan,
jalan yang diredhaiNya,
mahupun jalan kemurkaan,
manakah pilihan hati,
biar sekali terpilih,
tiada berpatah balik..

mungkin dorongan dan sokongan diperlukan,
bantuan si perasa asam garam terdahulu ditagih,
biar sekali merana,
jangan pilihan memberi seribu satu kesengsaraa,
Ya Tuhan,
bantulah hambaMu yang kerdil ini..

Nurkilan hati,
Farah..