dah jumpa apa yang patut !!

ape kejadahnye kan? hahaa.. yess, akhirnya aku jumpe apa yang aku nak.. apa yang aku perlu buad, apa yang aku perlu capai.. untuk mak ayah aku jugak.. seriously, harapan mak ayah aku yang diletakkan pada aku mang satu tanggungjawab terbesar yang penah aku pikul.. even aku neh nampak ksuke maen2, happy go lucky.. tp sape tau dalam aty aku neh macam nak meletop.. perghh.. bila aku pk an harapan mak ayah aku, aku jadik takut.. takut aku tk dapat realisasikan impian doang. and now, aku hanya mampu berusaha sebaik mungkin dan ditambah dengan doa agar ALLAH mempermudahkan urusanku. memang besar harapan mak ayah aku.. oke, dorang nak aku jadik DOKTOR VETERINAR. oke, for y'll information, nak amek degree in veterinar neh ukan senang.. pointer mesty 3.75 and above. so, mang susa.. skang aku da abes sem 2 and nak masuk sem 3.. sem 1 aku tkde laa teruk mane kot. tp still tkpat menjamin yang aku pat amek vet.. sem 2 pnye result tk lame g kua.. aku just mampu berdoa je.. but, aku mang toltol nak amek vet.. minat.. ape yang aku nak, t aku abes blaja da ade title DOKTOR depan name aku.. DOKTOR FARAH.. tak ke best tuh?? aishh..

lau d fikirkan, mang sonok sangat laa.. tp wat mase neh aku takot  tk dapat capai apa yang mak ayah aku hajat.. since bapat aku now at hospital, aku kene sedar. aku kne refleksi diri cket.. fikir! bapak aku mesti gembira lau aku dapat apa yang dea nak.. apa yg aku nak jugak.. kan? from now on, aku kene usaha lebih cket.. tinggalkan laa sumesume yang aku ade skang.. SUSAH DAHULU PENDAPATAN, SUSAH KEMUDIAN TKDE GUNENYE.. ahaha.. 

in fact, MUET puns da kua resultnye. alhamdulillah.. i've got an excellent enough laa.. walaupuns tk seberapa kott.. wkaka.. entaa laa.. but i'm so happy with mine.. 

yang paling penting, as long as aku tkpat gelaran DOKTOR ue, aku tk an pandang kiri kanan.. ahaha.. [kecuali time melintas]

#cer klik sini#

tenguk2 laa tempat yang aku nak masuk sangat!!!

langit tak selalu nye cerah..

from the the title.. yes.. mesti leh guess nape kan? exactly.. its all about me, my heart.. surely, what happened last night tinggalkan kesan NEGATIF dalam diri neh.. why? because i am an ORDINARY girl.. aku amek LANGKAH yang salah.. step yang aku atur, sume nye tak menjadik.. but from what was happening, aku belajar untuk lebih berhati-hati.. BERHATI-HATI memilih teman dan berfikir dahulu secara RASIONAL untuk memberikan perhatian yang sepatutnya kepada siapa.. 

mungkin aku rasa, aku buat something yang betul.. but at the end of the day.. its all end up just like that! its going to be my burden when my heart hurts like this.. seriously, sume orang akan TERASA HATI dengan bende neh.. walaupun aku tak de le baek mane, aku tahu aku maseh ade tempat untuk balek.. pulang kepadaNYA.. and now, the thing that i will do is to be more mature.. maybe, aku tak pandai berfikir or terburu-buru.. 

i admitted,  rase tuh datang tibe2 and the most annoying thing starts when aku mimpi DEA.. ahaha.. teruk! aku puns taknak.. lalala~ and aku realized that it was maianan tiidur yang nak jadikan aku LEKA! and great!! aku terPERANGKAP.. huhu.. how can i be such a stupid girl yeah? ouhh.. malu dohhh! tp tkpe, disebabkan aku tktau malu, CHILLEK je le.. anything can  happen.. ne tau aku de jodo nan ZIZAN.. wkaka.. 

and you, man! aku takkan mudah menyerah! takpe le lau aku jadik ANAK DARA TUA.. kene kawen pakse puns macam best je ala ala dalam NOVEL ue.. ahaha.. so, get out of my face!

how to manage my stress??

ahaha.. meme le aku stress.. now until this THURSDAY, aku akan merebus kepale HOTAK aku yang dah jem neh belajar belajar and belajar.. even IN FACT, aku le yang paling PERAJIN membace buku dalam BILIK aku tuh.. HUARH HUARH HUARH.. faham faham le.. RAJIN pulak aku nak bukak buku kan? ntaa laa.. this time is totally different.. aku takde MOOD langsung nak bukak buku even though aku tau PREVIOUS PAPER aku hentam kromo je.. yes, i KNEW that! and now, aku REALIZE yang i need to do something which is to be the book's BESTFRIEND.. but, penyaket MALAS aku neh menjadik-jadik laa pulok.. and aku tau, lau aku tak bukak buku, i will never make it.. i can't do well.. so, that is the POINT.. aku malas - tak bukak buku - tersedar - resau - terfikir2 - tak dapat tdoe - mimpi ngeri and at LAST aku STRESS yang teramat.. adoi adoi adoi.. sengalkah aku ni? yes, i admitted.. buku aku sentiase BAWAK ke mane2.. nak SENTUH buku? opkos.. nak BUKAK buku? ouhh no.. its hard for me.. hah, sume neh mesty keje NYAMPRONG aku.. haha.. aku jadik MALAS + KUAT MAKAN.. hahaa.. terukkan? now da 2012.. kene laa bukak buku BARU kan? takkan nak gune buku 2011 aku even aku rase buku 2011 aku is better than all thing! so, WELCOMING 2012.. need to change myself.. lau semalam, 31 DECEMBER 2011 aku malas but 2 JANUARY 2012 aku da rajen! ahahah.. mane p 1 JANUARY 2012?? hmm, aku nak release TENSION and STRESS.. and find the solutions for my problems right now! hahaa.. HEBAT kan? eeuuwww~

no one could understand..

Talking to the moon..

*i want you listen to me, i have no one right now. I only have you and you’re shining brightly tonight. I only noticed your existance not the others.

*please listen to my heart, its too hard for me to face all these obstacle. I’m only an ordinary girl. I don’t have any speciality, i stand by my own. And now, it will always be like this.

*i have big problems now, but no one can help me. I only seek for HIS helps. Ya Allah, please help me. I’m begging you, please makes my father healthier and live longer. If it had been written, just take me. Don’t take him. My family still needs and loves him.

*nothing can describes his suffer, no one understand his condition, no one could feel his painful. Its so hard for me to think about it. Only the person itself knows how its going so far.

*honestly from deep of my heart, i hurted a lot. I feel a lot of pains and suffering from all that happened.  But, it can’t be compared with my father’s condition right now. Oh God, let me bears his suffer. Let him be healthier, let him live longer, let him be happier. It’s alright for me. If it is only the way to make him better, yes i will do anything.

*now the only thing that is vital for me is my father. I love you so much dad. I will try to be a good daughter you ever have. I promise. God, help me to achieve my dream, this is the only thing that i want to think about.

*take me, let him free...

MUET muet MUET..

what should i do now? maybe, nothing! its getting late.. as what i know, i'm preparing for nothing.. which means i don't do anything.. oh my GOD, please help me tomorrow.. it just around the corner and now i can feel butterflies fly in my stomach and they won't stop! i really afraid of the LISTENING test! why? i had tried to do the LISTENING test.. and ohh GOD.. its really hard.. i can't concentrate to the speaker and i got confused whenever i tried to read the question and at the same time i tried to listen to the keywords.. plus! i don't know how will the test is happening.. here, i just want some good advices or tips that can make me be comfortable with the situation.. at least, i will not be like a DUMMIES when i go to the EXAMINATION room.. if possible, when i walked into the room so that i know what i need to do.. it is only my first problem here and i have another problem regarding to the same thing! yeah yeah yeah.. same goes to the WRITING test.. what should i write on the paper? do i need to write down my own silly words or based on some aspects? i don't know! this is my first time ever when i take an examination without further briefing or information.. i know NOTHING! i hope, GOD will help me tomorrow and i should be able to do the best.. i'm expecting high expectation which i need to achieve.. i don't want to be OVERCONFIDENT or something, but for sure i need to do the best until the end.. right? if tomorrow could end with a smile, i would be the happiest person ever in the WORLD.. now, i think i want to call my mum.. and seek for her powerful advice! hahaa.. don't be so jealousy ohk?? wkaka

my lovely family..

Assalammualaikum wbt..

Today, i would like to talk on my situation now.. yups, keadaan aku skunk neh.. for y'll information, aku skunk at spital.. HOSPITAL DAERAH PONTIAN.. kenape kenape kenape?? yes, here it goes.. semalam ayah aku kene tahan at spital.. ha a, bg yang tau tuh diam ler.. bapak aku mang da lame saket.. before ni, bapak aku mang da banyak kali masuk spital.. dulu siap kne OPERATE ag aw.. but this time, fortunately leh kua awal.. ALHAMDULILLAH.. ape yang berlainan dis time is bapakku saket time aku tkde at uma.. aku at KL.. hmm, ukan aku p beseronok yer.. aku study at sane.. kames malam jumaat, aku dapat tau condition bapakku agak KRITIKAL.. sedih hati aku bile dapat tau keadaan bappku tuh.. yelaa, sape yang tk sdih an.. aku neh an joyah, so sebok sebok dok tanye kakak kakak aku yang at kampong.. malam ue, our private doctor datang.. and according to him, essuknye bapak aku kne dhantar ke spital.. so, that is why aku berade at sini hari neh.. huhu.. malam ue jugak aku packed barang.. mang semangat sangat nak balk.. even though aku ade program pd ary sabtu.. fulled.. tp aku tktau laa.. mang teringin nak lek.. esuknye pas klus AGRICULTURE, aku tewos p TBS beli tket.. fortunately laa aku dapat tiket paling awal.. aku beli tket and tewos naek bus.. cume dalam perjalanan ue, something really BAD happened.. this moment is something like a NIGHTMARE for me.. seroiusly, aku tkleh tdoe pas ue.. cam TRAUMA gak ler.. aku jumpe nan ORANG TK BETOL.. takot giler.. huhu.. nk dpendekkan cite, ALHAMDULILLAH aku sampai kampung dgn selamat.. n keadaan ayahku jugak bertambah baek.. so the second day ayahku at spital, turn aku jage.. n pas DRESSING luka ayah, doc cakap ayah leh balek tp kne uat regular dresssing at klinik kesihatan.. seronoknye.. Hmm, aku harap ayah akan cepat SEMBUH n sehat sepenuhnye.. AMIN.